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[in_venting]

Uncle Albert said that Claire and Leon killed my parents. I don't know what to think about that, and I don't want to believe him, because... because they're Claire and Leon and I like them and I don't have anyone else anymore. But, they're both older now. A lot older (sorry, Leon), too.

They seemed really surprised to see me when I came here, like they weren't expecting me, or me at my age. Does that mean they really left me behind for good so I could be experimented on? That they infected me on purpose?

What if he's right, and they did that? Is it really safe for me to stay here?

On the other hand, why would he say stuff like that? Isn't that something you wouldn't mention? Shouldn't he have just shown up and taken me away once he knew I was here with dangerous people? I thought that's what responsible adults were supposed to do. Daddy would be really annoyed if I said something like that out loud, wouldn't he? I miss him, and I miss Mom.

All this thinking hurts. It makes me want to hide under my bed and not come out. But, if I don't smile and act "normal" for Claire and Leon, they'll wonder if something's wrong. It's not right to keep secrets anyway, so, I guess I should ask them about it. If Uncle Albert's right, and they did kill Mom and Dad, I'll run away. They couldn't keep me in one place before if I didn't want to be there, and I can hide from the monsters and things, too, if I have to...

Yeah, that's what I'll do. I'll run away if it's true, even if going outside is scary.

I'm supposed to visit Eve today, I think. Maybe I should ask her if she likes books.

...I'm not good at this "making friends" thing, though. I hope she likes books.

Comments

[nevermadestars.livejournal.com]

...you're Jewish?

[m0therlove.livejournal.com]

Raised that way, yeah. I'm not real good at it anymore.

[nevermadestars.livejournal.com]

Don't feel so bad. There's a long list of things you aren't good at.